11:00 pm, 5/29/20
hey uh, welcome to my page. im ell, im 19 and trans: mtf. im gonna do a lot of venting and crying on this page, but ill do other things too so watch out for that.
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11:23 pm, 5/29/20
damn, first update just about 20 minutes later, shit.
anyway, today my dysphoria has been real bad. i've been thinking a lot more about doing DIY HRT.
it sucks so bad,,, i hate being trans so much, i hate dysphoria so much, why couldn't i have just been born cis?
i can't live like this anymore, i don't wanna live like this anymore,,,
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12:34 am, 6/17/20
god, i, really hate being a gamer. especially right now because a lot of the spaces i like are just being filled with so much hate just because of a lesbian character and another character everyone believes is trans because shes a little buff. it sucks. i just want to enjoy this game in peace, i've waited 7 years for it, and there's only a day left until i can play it. i just hope i enjoy it.
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2:11 am, 6/22/20
i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body i hate my body
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5:42 am, 7/02/20
hrmmm it appears i have relapsed back into self harm, and some of my ed tendencies. perhaps this is the beginning of the end?
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8:30 am, 7/19/20
i hate my parents. i'm genuienly suffering everyday, and they notice it. they see it. and in their little "genius" minds decide "hey, let's put more pressure on this bordering re-suicidal trans person and act like it helps." god, i, hate my family.
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